Just Before Today Begins

Just Before Today Begins

Listening to her heartbeat

As she lays naked pressed against me

I am content

Our legs and bodies are intertwined perfectly

Like the last piece

Of a puzzle

Placed just right

Her chest rises and falls against me

We are safe

Wrapped in a warm cocoon of soft blankets

And fluffy pillows

I chuckle when she snores quietly

Just barely audible

Relaxing into me

Naked

Vulnerable

She finds peace in my arms

And I too eventually find sleep 
With a smile upon my lips

Robert Lloyd

Miles

"Miles"

I wander the streets

Old and weary

With tired and worn out feet

I follow the cracked and dusty paths of many mistakes

And where once traveled machines of lust and bravado

Now only calloused and hardened footfalls tread

The smiles of my youth dared to speed along the highways of life

Unflinching in the eyes of danger

Uncaring of what scars I stacked upon my soul

Or what wounds I slashed into other’s hearts

I was the beast of speed and desire

An engine purring contented with whatever I did

And now with miles between me and that new car smell

I realize I should have paid better care

To the vessel I drive

My body is not as withered as my mind

One that envisioned me as invincible and forever

With duct tape and a small hammer

I struggle to find my way

All the while banging on my motor

Trying to find the road that leads me to peace

A junkyard where I can ease into hibernation

While hiding from all wrong turns I have made

Robert Lloyd

Little Cracks

“Little Cracks”

It only takes a memory

To loose your breath

One single slip of your guard

And the pain you try so hard to forget

Trickles in

It whispers about what used to be

It screams your faults

It shows you what you will no longer have

And then it slowly recedes

Possibly comforted by its damage

Forever now seems to be just a word I did not know the meaning of

Or it is just a lot shorter than I ever knew it would be

I can’t run from myself

There is nowhere to hide

So I fill the world with anything but my own past

Dreading the pauses where she slips in

The walls I build grow higher

And eventually

Her touch

Her voice

Her smile

None of it will reach the summit of my divide

The one that separates our yesterdays from my tomorrows

So for now I brace myself

Preparing for that quiet

For that ache

For anything that sneaks past the sentinel meant to defend my heart

Robert Lloyd

I Submit

I Submit

She has an angels grin

With the devil in her eyes

She captivates me

Drawing me deeper and deeper

Into the world of love

I whisper to her

Assuring her of our tomorrow’s

Look how far we have come

Just Imagine where we will go

She brings to life my wildest dreams

She owns my body

My heart

My soul

I am her forever

To do with as she desires

Robert Lloyd

25 May 2018

Perplexity's Kiss

Perplexity's Kiss

She smiles

Staring curiously

Wondering where his mind

Is wandering

He turns away

After she catches

That coy look

He always has

When she questions tomorrow

They are

Fragile

Tender

Hopeful

Guarding their bruised hearts

Not knowing the questions

They have

Yet willing to ride the breeze

And bathe in the sunlight

Of one another’s affections

She is worth it

He is worth it

Can they be worth it

She smiles

Staring curiously

Wondering where his mind

Is wandering

14 May 2018

Robert Lloyd